Sunday, August 30, 2009

A light came on!

Our month of trial FLR is coming to an end and yes finally after some Highs and lows I think I can see a path we will travel down. Last week my stubbornness caused a huge argument which ended in Lo7 not speaking to me. Then it was like someone turned on a light in my head , everything was clear to me Lo7 wants the man who also is the Sub all the time not just when he is submissive . I want Lo7 to be more dominant. I apologized for the blow out and asked that if I started to become stubborn just say " this is not open to discussion" Lo7 agreed and when I found myself starting to argue, which until now never realized how stubborn and argumentative I was, Lo7 simply said " not open for discussion" I made a conscious effort to obey that on every occasion and it worked. Baby steps I know but I feel great, Lo7 is happy, our lives seem peaceful and as a reward Lo7 is going to teach me how to apply toenail polish to her toes tonight. I cant wait to see what september will bring

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Struggling to gain control...I'm still hanging in there!

I'm struggling how to put my feeling with our life style into words. Over the past several months I have not used the blog and the resources to explore this lifestyle as much as Kb7 has, I figured that's his job doing his homework and keeping me updated since this was his idea in the first place.
I love and worship Kb7, my goal is to make him happy, fulfilling my end of this FLR, we have a long way to go, I'm not sure how far we have come as we seem to take one step forward and one large step back to the beginning all too often.
I have come to "prefer" the submissive edge to Kb7 over the vanilla Kb7, who wouldn't love a husband who has you sitting upon a pedestal catering to your every whim, and agreeing with everything you say without a question. These moments are only for very brief periods before Kb7 reverts back to himself. Don't get me wrong, the vanilla Kb7 is what I fell in love with to begin with, but someone better has come along so to speak. I have fallen out of love with the vanilla Kb7 and fell very much in love with the new life I have with Kb7. The issue I am having with the FLR is why we need to change to our everyday life to have Kb7 behave this way, why can't he just be the caring worshipping husband without any strings attached.
I am having fun with lifestyle I have become committed to, I wonder if we can continue on with this forever, what will happen to us if we can't...I have my fears that I may not be as happy in love. Kb7 wants this life style but isn't fully committed, though he is updating the blog and doing a lot of networking with others, there is still a lot of resistance, and like Kb7 has admittedly confessed it seems to be on his terms.
A saying comes to mind, "If it isn't broken why fix it" I was happy with our relationship before Kb7 approached me with his desire to be in a FLR, I wonder if I may not be the one Kb7 is the most suited for, perhaps I should be doing more to support this decision. I don't know where to start. Too much to think about, just getting back from holidays again and have tons to do..
Seriously, something that seems to be so simple isn't coming that natural for us. Moving forward, I am looking forward to report much more progress when Kb7 and I get a chance to sit and review his homework....more to follow.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Aug 10th

Well, my first week as a non arguing husband in a WLM was a disaster! Both Lo7 and myself could not find our proper places in this relationship. I was sad Lo7 was frustrated until Saturday night!
We were both tired and frustrated, Lo7 was leaving for a week the next day, Getting ready for bed Lo7 said "go shower and then come to bed and massage my feet"! I jumped at the chance and as she lay on the bed fully clothed I took my position naked at her feet and started massaging the moisturising cream into them. I was rock hard and could not believe this was happening Lo7 usually does not like to have her feet touched. She noticed my hard on smiled , closed her eyes and really enjoyed the massage which led into a hot night of sex sex sex. The next morning I awoke and was hard immediately, Lo7 started massaging my manhood and out of the blue said "I want my tea served now with you in your Traveling Panties" I was slightly embarrassed and humiliated(I had never worn them in front of her always whenI was on the road and took pictures for her to see) but the hard on sticking out the side was the true feelings that Lo7 pick up on . I served tea and as she sipped it she proceeded to explain that before she left she would have an orgasm , but I would have to Wait until next Saturday! All the time talking she was using her hand to bring me to the edge, stopping just short. when she was satisfied I was in agony she had me use my mouth to fill her needs , Well things got hot and just as she was about to cum she pulled me up and used my cock to finish her off saying "DO NOT CUM" I tried but it was to late! Lo7 was not happy but also knows I was past the point of no return. After the fun we laid in bed Lo7 had her head on my chest. She said I like you as kb7 but we need to build this into our daily life. First thing I want is for you to write in our blog about this Cumming when told not to, lets let our readers decide your fate for that slip up. 2) I want your groin area free of any hair at all times, this is to remind you I am in control. 3) We need to define our roles more clearly, While I am away I want you to write down what you can do to be a better partner in a FLM and what my role would be and how you see me in this arrangement. When I return we will sit down and discuss your writings and start our new life with Lo7 in charge and kb7 at her side.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

August 4th

Well 4 days in and I see why Lo7 is so frustrated. She has had to remind me of our arrangement several times already! I guess I did not realize how patient she actually is when it comes to this lifestyle. I feel really at piece as the days go by, Loving Lo7 more and just really getting along. I don't think this is happening because I am being submissive, I think in my head I am accepting that there is so much more harmony when you accept that 1 person should be in control and guide the relationship while the other person lovingly follows. In this case it is the Female led relationship we are pursuing.
Nothing fem domme to report as of yet
but i will continue to post