Control in public

Last night was a first, We were at some friends house and after a few to many wines Ladyof7 started to make comments on Chasity and Fem Domme I laughed it off in front of our friends. Inside I was scared and turned on not knowing how far she would go with it. It did not go on as i changed the subject quickly and Ladyof7 let it go, But this made me think it would be a real turn on if we did it secretly in public. maybe I would not be allowed to have a drink without Ladyof7's permission this could happen if say my glass is empty and someone says more wine? I glance lady's glass is not empty and there is no gesture from her saying it is OK so i say no thank you . Ladyof7 finishes her wine and i ask if she would like a refill and she says yes thank you if you are going to have one or yes since your not having more I will and you can drive. I think the secret controll is probably one of my biggest turn ons as well as the thrill of ladyof7 publicly displaying suttle power she has over me

MARCH FORWARD

My Lover arrived home last night tired from her trip. I did not want to bother her with the Blog Changes But wanted her to relax and enjoy being home. I will show her tonight. One thing I am curious about is that I seem to crave to submit to my lovers control the more my every day life fills with stress. Could this be a form of escape for me? I guess I am just starting to understand myself more the more I write my comments here.I am also hoping the woman I love will also read and understand better what is going on in my head as My Communication skills are not the best.

update

While my Lover is away I have been doing some Blog House cleaning. I have created an account for My lover to post comments from. I cant wait until she get home

As you can see by the redness it was a long night. Now that i have your attention i must confess to my lover that I am guilty of poor communication and i hope that this blog will help me open up and help our Mistress, Sub life as well as our day to day love grow.
My Lover is out of town until Sunday , Maybe she will check this . If not i hope to show her Sunday night

Communication

Febuary is almost gone and Life has kept us from posting. My goal in march is to post daily!
Pictures , yes lots of pictures. I am following a blog By Mistress Lady Vixen and adonis. I am learning that the blog can be a great communication tool between Sub and Mistress. So stay tuned!

Rewards

SPANKED>fantasy to Reality. I am still a little shocked

Your only response was "You started this" as you ignored my pleas, had me drop my pants and position myself over your knees. My Cage slid between your nylon clad legs As I lowered my body onto you. The lack of feeling but knowledge that the only thing between my penis and your legs was a piece of plastic, blood rushing to the caged my member trying to make it grow hard. frustrated and slightly humiliated I lay there waiting, squirming Begging. "Who's the Boss" You said over my whining, I did not reply just kept pleading for release. Disbelief and terror where my feelings when the surprise of the belt hit my bottom at full force. "Do I need to ask again?" was all I heard as the belt came down again.Through the stinging and burning I moaned "You are ,you are please stop!!!"

It was like I could feel your smile run through your body as tears rolled down my cheek onto the floor. My hands tried to shield the next smack , but the "play handcuffs" were doing there job. Your rubbed my red bottom lovingly and at the same time pushed a pair of panties into my mouth to muffle the noise. "Listen to me" you said as the fourth blow hit me full force.

Do you want to get this over with or shall i take my time? I tried to speak but the panties muffled my voice. Exactly you said" Your opinion does not really matter , when will you learn that this is not on your terms. Whack!! more pain and muffled yells. The Bog says it all " Be careful what you wish for. Whack again!!! It was starting to sink in, She was doing exactly what i fantasized about but at this point realized fantasy and reality are two very different things. Five full power blows hit me and as i write this i still cant sit with full weight. Humiliated and in pain you helped me up, the panties still in my mouth you led me to a corner of the room , rubbing my red bottom you kissed my neck Stand here eye's straight ahead and think hard about what just happened. I stood bottom burning thinking listening to you as you leisurely sipped your wine flipping through catalogues and chatting on the phone. Finally you called me to come over to where you were seated. Head lowered from embarrassment I obeyed. You said 'So tell me what just happened ?" I hesitated and started to speak "You wanted to teach me a lesson I said almost as a question. Are you asking me that? No I said Why? was your response. You taught me a lesson because I was playing by my rules I said a little louder. Correct you said. So I think we both agree that Punishment of my choosing is much more effective than putting the little cage on and wearing it for a while till you get your thrill. Now let me get some pictures of that cute red bottom then get on the computer and update our Blog .I want you to tell the story exactly as it happened!